i’m really kind of freaking out a little. every day i can see that my hair is thinner than the last,...

i’m really kind of freaking out a little. every day i can see that my hair is thinner than the last, and my mom keeps insisting that it’s better. she told me to go back to the dermatologist if i wasn’t happy with how it looked and to see if she could help me. i’m coming to terms with the fact that i’m going to have to go, but i don’t want it to turn into this big fiasco like last time. maybe i’ll go and ask if i can just show her, rather than her touch (AND YANK) my hair. what’s really frustrating is the fact that i’m not losing more hair than is normal in a day. some days i lose more than others, but the amount of hairs i lose is not considered “abnormal”, but somehow my hair is still thinning. i’m wondering if it’s not growing back in right, or if my follicles aren’t functioning properly anymore. i know i need to calm down about it, because stress can make it worse, but when i don’t stress, i lose more (from not being so uptight and gentle with it) and then i start stressing again. it’s really just ridiculous and i can’t keep living my life like this. it’s been almost a year since this whole ordeal started, and i can’t let it consume any more of my life. then again, i can’t NOT let it either.